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yes, shane. he told me that he'd love it if i called him shaney, and so i did:) his nickname was shenanigans and i can't imagine a more fitting one:D

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Oh I remember him last year when i 1st came here,shenanigans aint the word,he was full of many of them,he'd get banned come back say something crude rude and lascivious and get banned again.I thought it was hilarious,I didnt always understand his humor but I know a few times him and abi defended me from a few cranky mods on here. He really did push the envelope and peoples buttons I think.

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I always worry about the bipolar folks. People don't realize that the mania is just as bad if not worse than the depression sometimes.

I've never had a full-blown manic episode. The closest that I came was after not sleeping for five days, but I never got quite that high. I can see how it would be unbearable after a while. You'd be afraid that there would never be relief, and every minute feels like an hour.

I am very sorry for Shane. I'm also glad that you shared his first name, Peri. He was a very interesting man.

The friendships on here can be intense. Can't imagine what it would be like to lose one of my best buddies from here. I am very sad for you, Peri.

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I didnt know you were BP sandy,you seem farther away from adhd or any mental illness then most or alot of the other people here.a minute seems like an hour reminds me of math class or when I get sick.

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How did he come up with his internet handle?

Eshkaron's Engine sounds like a Magic the Gathering card. Like an artifact that you play as an enchantment. :D

Edit - Here, I made one for him:
http://imageshack.us/m/820/7908/15287617.png

What does Eshkaron mean?

And when did he close down his YouTube account? I Googled him, found his YT account, but it said it had been closed down.

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I always thought it^ was unique, and I loved the avatar he had when I first came on: A nightmare before christmas.

I loved the video he made on being grateful. I just have a lot more respect for him now that I know how much he suffered.

I never saw him post on his pain.

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I just thought he was either a smart *** pervert or sex nut trying to be funny.

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i took the youtube account offline for now. he wanted some stuff removed or for it shutdown. i won't be able to get to it for awhile and there are some other web things that i want his family to make the call on.

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look up the thread "genuine misfits"...that was one of his main depression ones.

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eshkaron:

inspired by "eshkalon", who, i think, was an egytian king.

he wasn't a copycat _ev_er_ so he changed it to eshkaron...and then eshkaron's engine because that'd be the driving force that powered things.

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Listening to some of his you tubes stuff,he talked w great intelligence and great convictions.He was 1 of the 1st to befriend me here last may when i joined him an abi and the 1 man from NYC cant think of his name right now.

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He was very articulate.

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And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never knowing who to cling to
When the rain set in
And I would have liked to have known you
But I was just a kid
Your candle burned out long before
Your legend ever did....

elton john and bernie taupin
http://www.addforums.com/forums/data...AASUVORK5CYII=

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He was a sweet guy. I didn't know him that well but he had a lot of good in his heart, it showed in his bold posts. He will be missed.