I feel like I’m drowning
 

I recently moved to a new city, new state back last April. My job promised me good commissions, a mentor, training program up in VA. I was supposed to be in an office with my coworkers and even do ride alongs to clients. It was supposed to be great. Then COVID hit and Thankfully I’ve had my in laws and wife to keep my company but we moved into our own place and. I’ve been going downhill. I’ve been doing Keto, eating right, reading, keeping myself motivated but I’m still not 100%. The stress of the pandemic has finally caught up with me.

I’ve realized I’m the only employee stuck at home, I don’t have a routine, I’m left to sell paper and not actual products like I was supposed to. My insurance doesn’t cover my meds. I’m starting to loose it and I feel like I’m drowning in my adhd. I’m left to fend for myself in surrounded by the four walls of my own home with no friends no family, I don’t even go to an office, plus I don’t make any commissions. If only I could get my meds I would have to ability to ease my symptoms and focus on doing better at my job. Yes I did get a state card for help and coupons, still expensive and we can’t afford it. My meds would still be more expensive than the payment on my new car, that’s how expensive big pharmacy is charging.

With no routine, no friends to talk to, no family surrounding me for support, no motivation to even sell because why?..not like I’m making commissions. I’m just surrounded by my vices. I’ve become a mess. My wife will tells me something and five minutes later I forget what she told me.I’ve just been laying in bed no motivation. If only I had my adhd meds. My symptoms could be relieved, and I’d have that drive to get through this.

So let’s be real here. What are my options. Can I call Aetna to see if I can jump off my employers insurance? Option B: I could go back into teaching, at least I would get out. Probably be able to afford my meds, and get back the ability to better myself. If I stay here I’ll drown. I need my meds in order to quit my vices and have that drive to succeed. Only ADHDers understand. I’ve focus for the last nine months on staying strong, pushing forward, no meds, diet etc, but even with that my adhd is so bad, it’s just not enough.

Re: I feel like I’m drowning
 

I think there are some super cheap adhd mods. Did the cheaper ones not work for you? I see Ritalin 60 pills for $14.

Yeah this pandemic has been tough. Hopefully it'll only be just s few more months for widespreadvaccine. Hope you can hang in there.

Re: I feel like I’m drowning
 

Have you tried good rx and a slightly different med? They have an app. I take adderall xr that is covered by my plan and on good rx is super expensive but Ive seen a lot of the ir ones are much cheaper.

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Welcome the the forum Turbobull,

I agree with sarah about checking out GoodRx. I was without insurance for a while and it saved me a ton. My adderall IR was about the same price on GoodRx as my co-pay with insurance. I’m prescribed 20 mg twice a day and it was about $32 on GoodRx. My co-pay was $30 with insurance.

Just know you’re not alone! The pandemic has taken it’s toll on many of us and our mental health. Check out this link and best wishes.
https://www.goodrx.com/go/homepage-l...664b3f8db0c5a0

Re: I feel like I’m drowning
 

Hey thanks for the advice. But with my other medical conditions my drs only approved Vyvanse. I can’t take any others so there are no alternatives. Is there a shared script option or something I can look into.

Re: I feel like I’m drowning
 

I can’t take any alternatives. My other drs only okayed vyvanse. I don’t ha e the option to even get onto adderall. I have other medical conditions along with my adhd so there’s really no alternative. What else could you recommend.

Re: I feel like I’m drowning
 

Some people have found that Omega 3 fish oil supplements boost focus.
I began taking it 15 years ago and it made a big difference for me. I didn't
have health insurance at the time so could not get a diagnosis let alone meds.
Could be worth trying, eh?

Re: I feel like I’m drowning
 

This really hit home with me. A lack of routine is the quickest way to completely derail me no matter how well everything else is going. It doesn't matter what the routine consists of; my brain just starts to fall to pieces if I don't have roughly the same day, every day. While your meds will most likely be necessary to feel completely better, I urge you to set up some kind of arbitrar routine immediately.



Boring tasks which make you healthier, cleaner, or calmer are ideal; housework, exercise, cooking, video games, whatever works. Just set up a routine and then think about what comes next!


Keep posting on the forum. People here genuinely want to help! Things will get better mate!

Re: I feel like I’m drowning
 

Yep krill oil has been a help in the absence of meds for me.