I just ate a pill of ecstasy for the first time yesterday

[Rush]

And the feeling was amazing. Not so much the emotional feeling, but I felt normal. I could think clearly -- very clearly. As if I could use my brain. There's no fog anymore. I become extremely talkative, not because I want to, but because I can think of things to say. It doesn't have to be interesting things, it's just talking, saying anything. My tongue felt like there were words on the tip of it, waiting to just jump out, and they were all in queue. My speech was so eloquent. I felt like I could sell anything, convince anyone to do anything. Extremely confident and normal. Normally, I always stutter and stumble over my words because I can't properly think when I talk.

My biggest fear is that I'll be boring, have nothing to say. That was not the case yesterday. I didn't care because I knew just saying anything would make me interesting. And I found everyone else interesting too. Anything people said was interesting. There was never a dull moment. The silence was interesting too. I found interesting in life. Normally, I have no interests, no real hobbies, don't really care about any conversations, anyone, anything.

I was describing some of these feelings I had to someone, the way that I could actually think. He told me "you might have ADD," which was a shocker hearing someone else notice it. Reading about SCT, I thought this is what I had word for word, but now, I've never been so sure in my life. I always feel groggy, tired, like there's a weight in my brain, a fog that won't lift. This has actually given me some hope, knowing that there are other normal feelings out there and comparing it with my life. I was infact going to get officially tested for something like 10 hours for ADD.

Do you think I should describe this experience to the ADD tester? That I've tried ecstasy? I've never taken drugs before in my life. I ate a pot brownie once and got extremely depressed then decided never to do it again. I feel like this is a great frame of reference, but at the same time it's not legal. Is it okay to tell her what I think what kind of ADD I have (SCT)? Or is it better to just describe my symptoms to the doctor and have her figure out where to categorize it? I honestly think right now that being able to think will change my life since I have trouble completing even the mundane tasks of waking up, eating, etc. Also is this an extreme case? Are there ADD medications that mimic these? Or does ecstasy do something extravagent?

[EshkaronsEngine]

I've never tried it but a friend from the forum has and said it put her to sleep. Those who have ADHD tend to react opposite to drugs than those without ADHD. For example METH(I haven't taken it) I hear really helps ADHDers focus.

[ChaoticZen]

I self medicated with ecstasy for a few years - of course I didn't know that I was self medicating since I was just diagnosed...I know how it feels to be 'on point' and to for once, stop being soooo aware of every little move I made or word I spoke...When I was on ecstasy, my personality was 'on'...and I felt like my brain slowed down enough to actually absorb things, and be present...(of course, I was in happy e-world, but none the less, you get my drift)...

In my (very amateur) opinion I feel that if you trust your doctor then you should be honest - because it's not unusual that someone who has undiagnosed ADD finds that certain drugs have a normalizing effect on their brain...and the affect ecstasy had on your brain may also help in your diagnosis...

However, (and I don't know how much you share with your dr) if telling your dr this it could raise an eyebrow (depending again on how conservative your dr is) and if you are diagnosed with ADD they may be resistant to prescribe you stimulants at first.

good luck

[Tommy Wilhelm]

I've got no advice about your doctor, but I've tried it a few times and it seemed to me that it made me a bit less 'high' than the others who took it -maybe, I thought, because I'd been used to taking stimulant medication for my ADD. I've heard of people with add taking coke and feeling normal, supposedly because it's a stimulant. Mind you, I've also heard that our sort of brain is predisposed to addiction.

But anything I say is just hearsay. I'm in no way competent to give advice on anything like this. What you describe, though, sounds almost the way I felt when I started my medication.