Extreme Frustration Levels, possibly ADHD-related

[MentalNomad]

I'm not sure if anyone else here shares this, but lately I've been having moments of extreme frustration. I feel like everyone is harboring some secret grudge against me, or that there's an insurmountable stream of bad luck, or that I'm constantly screwing up and there's no way out, and I have these intense moments inside my head, wanting to tear my hair out. Many of the people here already know that ADHD can come with poor emotional regulation, but I have the sense that my ability to regulate in this area is especially god-awful.

Can anyone else relate?

[CheekyMonkey]

I've always been this way. It has gotten easier to control as I've gotten older, however times of stress or exhaustion will cause me to have less control over that. Typically if I see the warning signs (and that's a big IF) then I stop what I'm doing and go somewhere to cool off. Sometimes I don't catch it soon enough....and that sucks.

[murlin99]

I have this problem all of the time. Sometimes it is much worse than others, I just came out of a 3 month span where this seemed to get worse every day and I was getting to where I didnt care about anything because I didnt want the thoughts that went with it. I am sort of back to baseline now which is not "normal" but normal for me. Still trying to patiently wait for my appt. at the end of August. *sigh*

[Fuzzy12]

I go through phases where my tolerance for frustration becomes really, really low.

On another note: Long time no see. How've you been?

[Fortune]

Originally Posted by MentalNomad

I'm not sure if anyone else here shares this, but lately I've been having moments of extreme frustration. I feel like everyone is harboring some secret grudge against me, or that there's an insurmountable stream of bad luck, or that I'm constantly screwing up and there's no way out, and I have these intense moments inside my head, wanting to tear my hair out. Many of the people here already know that ADHD can come with poor emotional regulation, but I have the sense that my ability to regulate in this area is especially god-awful.

Can anyone else relate?

If I am sleep deprived, I start to get the paranoia. In fact, starting to suspect anyone is plotting against me is a sign that I need to go to bed as soon as possible. Constant sensory overload and social frustrations can build up to a constant feeling of frustration about everyone and everything around me, eventually causing a meltdown or - more likely - a shutdown, which effectively starts the whole cycle over again.

[MentalNomad]

I am the same way when it comes to sleep deprivation, the frustration is multiplied many times over because I can't concentrate on anything, as well as the paranoia you mentioned. Then, there is just a general, vague frustration. I was reading awhile back about how a psychologist (who had a hard to remember Russian name) believed that one could only be happy when engrossed in an activity. I think that is a large part of my frustration, as obviously paying attention is very hard thing for me to do. It's like my mind can't latch onto anything. I've had some recent successes, but only because of great efforts, and the returns haven't been impressive.

In regards to paranoia, I have a close relative who was supposedly diagnosed with mild schizophrenia, I even attempted to convince my former psychologist that I had that disorder, because I believed my attention deficits and memory impairments to be so severe (as well as the social anxiety) He disagreed, but I have yet to find an ADHD medication that helps me in the long-term.