Paraphilia

[ana futura]

Originally Posted by Ocyan

Honestly I think they do. I think it's a form of extremity that excites me. Like the are paraphilias. Arousal comes from it intense and illegal standards.

Well, I guess the only person who can say is you. My brain sometimes goes to weird places that I know it shouldn't. I often get a "what would happen if..." and then it's usually something messed up.

I don't need or want those thoughts. They come and go, and are often influenced by horror and sci fi movies. I have an over active imagination sometimes. I'm aware that that's just how my brain works- it's all over the place and I don't have the "moral filter" that other people seem to have that would cause me to repress or revile these thoughts.

It sounds like what's happening to you goes a little beyond "what would happen if..." but only you can answer that. And I agree with Sandy and Crystal, it's best to err on the side of caution.

[Sandy4957]

Ocyan,

You realize that the concerns that we're expressing here aren't about judging you, but about thinking through the risks and potential consequences, right?

I mean, in many ways, this thread isn't all that different from the one where an ADDF member copped to using his phone all the time while driving. We're just seeing the danger and thinking about what's best for our fellow member. It happens that those concerns ALSO extend to others who might be hurt, as well.

Point is, you've been forthright, and then you withdrew, perhaps because you didn't like what you heard, but I can't believe that you're hearing much different from anyone else, other than, say, someone who is not as honest with himself as you've been.

I'll let you know when I hear from my friend, but I did like the looks of that one program that I sent you.

[Ocyan]

I completely understand. But actually, I do have one compulse. It definitely is a paraphilia, but most definitely not a dangerous (at least not for others than me) one. It certainly very extreme, but also very popular depending on the persons but in my case it is a rare unlimited form of that extremity.

It is like ana futura said, like Sandy said ; I am not backing off. I'm analysing the urge, and being completely honest with myself. And do I have other fantasies ? Like having said ; the one and the really strongest.

Yes I am in therapy. I will use and help provided. But I know the severity of the case is smaller than it has grown to be. No I don't represent any danger around kids. It's not nearly close to that extremity. I'm not backing off, I'm being realistic with who I am. Besides, I know with my social anxieties chances are small I'd give in to any impulses.

Yes I hate the relevance of the case this thread on this forum has grown to be and the image it has created. My intention was basically to inform about other people's possible paraphilias...

I'm not ungrateful, on the contrary, I can't thank enough - and if besides the help proposed somebody does happen to exhibit a rare fantasy - I'm dead curious !

[itsanADHDthing]

I like teenage girls but I am a teenager :P
Not in a gross sick twisted way. In a "hey, we're about the same age, lets get to know each other."
and not like 13 year old girls either. 16+ (I am 18)