I wish I didn't do the things I do when I'm like this...

[LordranBound]

On my bad days I can be such a jerk. Even if I'm able to hold it all in and not lash out at anyone, which I've gotten better at, I still want to scream at everyone and spend hours telling them off in my head. Of course then there are the times I can't hold it in and say something I regret. I think I remember that great ADD doc saying something about this (Russel?) - that it happens to ADD people all the time, but when I realize that I'm in the zone where I might say or do something rash, all I can think of is "I am so totally right about this - this NEEDS to be said! If I feel this strongly about this I can't just stay quiet about it."

[Repton]

I can relate to this, in fact I've spent the last week or so like this. Not only is it annoying, it's downright exhausting in itself, especially holding it in.

The guy you're thinking of is Russell Barkley, I've actually just gotten one of his books, I think I might go read some to keep my mind occupied for a while.

[LordranBound]

SO exhausting. And sometimes makes me feel a little insane. Sometimes I feel like "Which person am I? The one in the bad mood or the 'nicer' one?" :/

[lalapin]

I can relate to this!! I feel the meds help me control this so much better! Because I usually have almost non-existant control over this, I easily snap and I can jump at people when irritated. It only lasts a few minutes and it's over, I'm back to my normal optimistic happy person. And sometimes when I start telling people off I don't know where to stop... I used to think I was crazy, I feel much better since I know it's just another ADHD thing and that there are solutions...!

[Geno]

Hahaha, I'm the same way. I can go from the nicest person ever to(this is to people I know, I always try to be nice to random people), as another person on this forum described, "caustic" :P

[Hypoactive]

my 18yr old son (ADD-PI) is totally like that...the "funny" part is that hardly anyone knows he's this way -- as he only takes it out on those closest to him (his parents, his girlfriend, and his best friend)...the rest of the world, however, thinks he's the nicest guy they've ever met.

[Geno]

Originally Posted by Hypoactive

my 18yr old son (ADD-PI) is totally like that...the "funny" part is that hardly anyone knows he's this way -- as he only takes it out on those closest to him (his parents, his girlfriend, and his best friend)...the rest of the world, however, thinks he's the nicest guy they've ever met.

I'm not PI but I'm quite similar. If he's anything like me, he doesn't mean to be that way. I feel horrble after I go off on someone I care about angrily. It's rare that I do it to someone I don't care about and when I do it's usually for a good reason.

[Repton]

Yep, this side of me rarely if ever is seen by people outside of my closest family. I've been diagnosed adhd-pi also but it will be next week before I get to try any meds. Got to keep a handle on it until then

[Zevispaz]

I've gotten pretty good about knowing when I'm going to start talking without thinking about what I'm saying.

I just walk away saying I'll talk about it later, if they pursue me, it's their own fault if their feelings get hurt.

[fracturedstory]

I'm doing it in my head right now. I don't do it a lot face to face. I feel good when I do though, then I wish I never did. But online I go off, then I feel bad and ignore that side of the web for about three days.
When I do it in my head I just laugh at myself. The emotions are so strong I feel like I've actually said it to people.