EI, I know it won't last, creeping tension

[FogNoggin]

Employment Insurance, formerly Unemployment Insurance in Canada.
Been on it since April, using the system for help, a diagnoses, employment help, etc.
But I am totally lost, I turn my nose at suggested employment opportunities, I feel incompetent, even though that is not completely true. I still have no medication (soon I hope).
Here I sit and my head feels like a lump of gelatin, i can't even get my resumes out there, ink refill wont work on my printer so I am dependent on others to print me out a stupid cover letter, and of course each one has to be custom written, what is wrong with a hand written one?
I hate these formalities, in my opinion a hand written letter has WAY more personality and insight.
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I am supposed to keep a checklist of household duties of household chores as suggested by my 'employment specialist' to help me break my ADD habits and I can't even keep up with that, I am supposed to check it off everyday, but I wait a few days and I don't even know what to check off anymore for what I did or did not.

I am scared to go back to work, at least as long as I am still not getting meds, I don't even know what they (meds) will do for me, hopefully they do help me to keep motivated and more focused.

One last question, if my EI does run out, what can I receive from disability welfare (CANADA), if that is the net I must use just in case?

I just hope the 'D' word doesn't strike me down, Depression and ADD and uncertainty, anyway,no need to explain that one to you people.

Thanks for reading this.

[SquarePeg]

Don´t turn your nose up and employment opportunities, just a change of routine can offer a little stimulation and help you feel better. For me staying at home with too much time on my hands practically turns me into the walking dead.

[sarahsweets]

Originally Posted by FogNoggin

Employment Insurance, formerly Unemployment Insurance in Canada.
Been on it since April, using the system for help, a diagnoses, employment help, etc.
But I am totally lost, I turn my nose at suggested employment opportunities, I feel incompetent, even though that is not completely true. I still have no medication (soon I hope).
Here I sit and my head feels like a lump of gelatin, i can't even get my resumes out there, ink refill wont work on my printer so I am dependent on others to print me out a stupid cover letter, and of course each one has to be custom written, what is wrong with a hand written one?
I hate these formalities, in my opinion a hand written letter has WAY more personality and insight.
...............................................
I am supposed to keep a checklist of household duties of household chores as suggested by my 'employment specialist' to help me break my ADD habits and I can't even keep up with that, I am supposed to check it off everyday, but I wait a few days and I don't even know what to check off anymore for what I did or did not.

I am scared to go back to work, at least as long as I am still not getting meds, I don't even know what they (meds) will do for me, hopefully they do help me to keep motivated and more focused.

One last question, if my EI does run out, what can I receive from disability welfare (CANADA), if that is the net I must use just in case?

I just hope the 'D' word doesn't strike me down, Depression and ADD and uncertainty, anyway,no need to explain that one to you people.

Thanks for reading this.

Are you diagnosed and will your doctor consider meds?

[mrzyphl]

I was laid off four years ago. My boss kept four other people with less experience than me and wouldn't tell me why. My confidence was so shattered I couldn't bring myself to seriously apply for jobs. After eight months my boss and his buddy were let go and the company called me back.
Looking back now I wish I didn't just sit on my hands all the time. I could have gone on all day bike/hiking trips and gotten in shape. Instead I gained about 20lbs and lost more self confidence everyday. If I didn't get called back to work... I don't even want to think about it.

Take squarepegs advice and try to break up your routine and stay active as much as possible. Don't be like me. Everyday I made a vow to do something the next day and I never did. As time went on I got more and more indecisive about what I should do.

I know ADD is working against us but don't be like me, you've got to keep trying. It's crucial.

[sarek]

Don't let any job opportunities slip by. Its a luxury you can not afford.

[425runner]

I've been unemployed for over a year now...and regret not taking part time job last year during the tax season. My self confidence is null and every rejection hurts...it's gotten to a point where I don't believe in myself anymore and it scares me!

I'm beginning to think that maybe I'm unemployable?

[FogNoggin]

Originally Posted by sarahsweets

Are you diagnosed and will your doctor consider meds?

Yes, I am diagnosed ADD-NOS (not otherwise specified, leaning towards PI)

Right now I am waiting on a Dr. that can write me a prescription, it's just a matter of waiting for my turn.
I cannot wait, I am hoping medication will help dig me out of my slump.

I am hoping for FOCUS, I feel like a kid waiting for christmas, if I opened up a present Christmas morning and there was ADD medication in it, that would be an awesome Christmas!
Hopefully I will get to try meds before the end of this month.

[FogNoggin]

Originally Posted by 425runner

I've been unemployed for over a year now...and regret not taking part time job last year during the tax season. My self confidence is null and every rejection hurts...it's gotten to a point where I don't believe in myself anymore and it scares me!

I'm beginning to think that maybe I'm unemployable?

Hey buddy, I know, I know!
You work hard, you try, but no employer has sympathy for us, it's a business.
I got laid off from my last job because I often blew up and complained of the workload, just getting ****** off and not holding it in, then fellow employees would run to the office on me.
5 years at that job, wanted to escape it.

I sit here unemployed knowing I got to dive back into the fire again, to get another job I will get tired of and despise.