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Old 12-13-17, 03:39 PM
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5 years sober

Today I celebrate 5 years sober. I remember being annoyed that I didnt stop on the 12th so it would be 12/12/12 but we all come around when the time is right.
It was 3am and I had to get up and drink because I was sweating and shaking. I was at the point where I couldnt make it two hours without alcohol. I was physically and emotionally sick. Hours before a friend called me and told me I had to tell my husband that I had relapsed and that it would be ok. My friend told me he loved me and being honest would set me free. She was right. When my husband got up that morning I told him and went to an AA meeting at noon.I kept going to those meetings and still go today. 12 step stuff isnt the only way to get sober and its not for everyone but its my success story.

I used to be able to feel where my liver hurt. I broke promises and avoided places I couldnt drink. I hid bottles everywhere and bribed the garbagemen with 20$ twice a week to take my trash with hidden bottles and put it in with the regular garbage. Our recycles were only every two weeks and I had to get them out somehow. Do you believe that?

I bribed garbagemen cause of the shame, the guilt and self hatred. The guy at the liquor store would tell me that he had more of my brand coming in because I would buy up the whole display over the course of a week. At that point it was miserable maintainence drinking. They always say to never forget your last drink or drunk but for me I never want to forget that first day sober. That first day and probably 6 weeks were physical hell. I should have gone to a detox. I take Lamictal for bipolar and was told it saved my life and prevented alcohol withdrawal seizures. I thought I was going to have a heart attack cause of the palpitations. I cried all the time. Alcohol was my coping skill and without it I felt like I couldnt be normal. I hardly slept and had cold sweats. I remember holding hands at the end of that first meeting and I was shaking so bad that other people had to steady me to keep me from shaking them too.

It was the worst few months of my life-and the best thing that could have happened. Go ahead and read posts of mine from that time frame and before. You'll see I am not the same person anymore. I was desperate and on my way to a slow death. Alcoholism is suicide, its just long, drawn out and painful.
Ive gone through more stress sober than I ever did drinking and have managed to live through it.
Thanks to all who support and celebrate me. Thanks to that friend who called me. Life is very hard and very spectacular all at the same time. Its Serendipity.


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I used to be able to feel where my liver hurt. I broke promises and avoided places I couldnt drink. I hid bottles everywhere and bribed the garbagemen with 20$ twice a week to take my trash with hidden bottles and put it in with the regular garbage. Our recycles were only every two weeks and I had to get them out somehow. Do you believe that?

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It was the worst few months of my life-and the best thing that could have happened. Go ahead and read posts of mine from that time frame and before. You'll see I am not the same person anymore. I was desperate and on my way to a slow death. Alcoholism is suicide, its just long, drawn out and painful.
Ive gone through more stress sober than I ever did drinking and have managed to live through it.
Thanks to all who support and celebrate me. Thanks to that friend who called me. Life is very hard and very spectacular all at the same time. Its Serendipity.


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you just stole my text.... I can relate to that so much.. and really feel happy to read u got out of this .. alcohol is the worst Thing one can do to himself and People around him....
wish u all the best <3
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