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Do you ever feel like you caused your depression?

For a little over a month my depression seems to have come back. Maybe itís been around for longer but I only started keeping track of it recently. Itís not super severe, but itís bad enough that it affects my day to day life. I know that I have a condition and itís not a character flaw but sometimes I think that I made myself sick or that I lack the mental fortitude to function better than I do currently. Even when I am feeling well, I donít function as well as I should and that frustrates me to no end.

Iím taking antidepressants and Iíve gone to therapy for years and my psych team donít really know whatís up. Theyíre just monitoring me at this point until something happens, really. I keep thinking that maybe Iím doing something wrong and that Iíve put myself in this situation, like not exercising enough or not meditating or not seeing friends or not challenging my negative thoughts enough. And yes, I know that Iím likely displaying some faulty thinking right now but even when I do remind myself that Iím doing the best I can I just canít take any comfort from it.

I guess what scares me is that Iíll learn all that there is to know about my depression and still find myself at a dead end. Iím scared Iím going to spend years of my life just trying to figure out what works while everyone else is just living their lives. Iím also scared by the idea that I could have avoided all of this had I made better decisions as a teenager.

I guess I want to know how typical these feelings are for someone with depression. I mean, I know self blame is common but what about that feeling that you arenít really sick and youíre just a weak willed person?
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Re: Do you ever feel like you caused your depression?

Yep and sadly, not everyone outside of ADDF is understanding
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Re: Do you ever feel like you caused your depression?

I get what you mean. I take an antidepressant and go to therapy but don't exercise or take fish oil like so many say are good for it. Even my pdoc says that there's the part where we have to get up and get out (I don't have a social life.) I also wonder about choices I've made or not made that caused problems in my life;I then found myself depressed.
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guess I want to know how typical these feelings are for someone with depression. I mean, I know self blame is common but what about that feeling that you arenít really sick and youíre just a weak willed person?
Above should be part of the symptoms!! Sadly it's not just what depressed people often think of themselves but it s also what a lot of other people think of those with BV depression. I thought for years that I f
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Re: Do you ever feel like you caused your depression?

Hi MB, I honestly believe that with the right meds, therapy and/or time it will pass. I'd like to think this is from personal experience, but it may just be a prayer. GL, -Tom
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Hi MB, I honestly believe that with the right meds, therapy and/or time it will pass. I'd like to think this is from personal experience, but it may just be a prayer. GL, -Tom
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