Blurry headed!!!

[Laney29]

Hey!! My name is Lane and I am 23 yrs old. ok well a little history... I was diagnosed with add or adhd whatever when I was 6. My doctor did many test and decided I had a severe case, so he put me on ritalin well i took it for years. Then when I was about 18 he switched me to concerta. Horrible. I was evil when I came off of it. We tried strattera and honestly I cant remember why I quit taking it. I thought add was just a child thing and I grew out of it. Well when I was 19 i thought I had depression problems, and the only real depression behind it was I couldnt focus, I was never on time, couldn't complete one thing I started and really had no idea who I was as a person. Well I tried anti-depressants and that just made me crazier than what I felt already. So I got off everything and just shuffled through the days. Well I got pregnant with my son when I was 20 and had him at 21 and everything seemed perfect. Well of course the newness went away. I started a new job at a bank and was constantly making careless errors, to the point of almost losing my job. I was never on time and very impulsive, blah blah blah.... ok well i am going to get to the point now.... So about 6 months ago my doctor and I were talking I was there for a med check up. I have been on valiums for a couple years now (minus being pregnant) and i started telling him what was going on. He said it was adhd. Which i was confused I thought I grew out of that. He ran test and oh yeah definatly. So he put me on 20mg Vyvanse and of course my valiums as needed. I felt great, like a completely different person. I was social, happy, started back to school, read all the time, quit making careless errors at work, actually got promoted... Well the last month I was on 40mg and one day I took it and it was hell... I felt horrible. Well I thought just a bad day thats it...The last month of being on it everything got worse. I couldnt do anything, complete anything, focus on anything, not even function. It just out of nowhere stopped working. So I went to him about 2 weeks ago in a panic and told him and he said lets try the adderall xr 20mg (generic) and 10mg ir (generic) in the afternoons if needed and see how that does. Well the first couple days were great I started to feel normal again. And now its hit or miss. Somedays are good and others are bad. I have gotten about the same amount of sleep everynight. No orange juice ect. Drinking lots of water and protein and I just cant figure out whats going on.... I am thinking I dont need to be on extended release at all and just regular ir but I need to figure something out quick because i am up and i am down and I cant afford to be that way, not as a mom, wife, in school and work full time. I am drifting from everything and I need some advice.