Working Memory

[Deeboo]

I take dexamphetamine male early 20's. When having a conversation i don’t feel like i have anxiety, the capacity/processing work memory is poor, its very difficult building a narrative around a conversation, so i know where I’ve been and where its going which makes me unable to contribute to the conversation. I’m left being confused and frustrated, because I’m not understanding parts of the conversation (my mind is clouded).when i read/write its nearly the same. It is only a little better because i can go back and read infinite times which i do and/or correct my own understanding/response to that.

All this, has made me to develop anti-social behaviour and poor self esteem. i feel like i am being held back by this from potentially learning knowledge and experiencing social/non-social life. It is possible to see that it has made others think I’m stupid/slow and they lose interest as a result. I’ve failed having potentially new and old friends, jobs, social activities, self-esteem

i can’t move on in life and have become quite down and limbo for quite a while now. and that is because of this short term memory issue. this has been going on for a few years i just wanted to see how i went with dexamphetaine since 2015.

when i read/write its nearly the same. It is only a little better because i can go back and read infinite times which i do and/or correct my own understanding/response to that.

I’ve done online tests (digit & spatial memory test) on this websites and I’m ok with these http://www.memorylosstest.com/free-w...-tests-online/

i know its handy to keep notes but it is still difficult an such an issue because i feel like i need to be writing notes in my notepad 24/7. and that just doesn’t work. if there was medication to help improve that (if it exists). would it help a lot with finding my interests, learning as well as social behaviour? Thank-you.