So, I'm sorry if this might not be correct, but at this moment I'm sat in floods of tears while my partner with ADD continues on with her day....
I've been with her for three years now and she was on a medication that made her high and low erratically.
Her new medication is slow releasing
On her first medication she became horrible only for a couple of days
But on these new meds it's been two weeks and it's just been horrible
Usually there are fights at least four days out of the week,
in the past three years, no matter what I say or do even in an upbeat tone of voice with a smile on my faceor just ask her to do a little more
It turns into a massive argument
But lately it's worse
She has an extra coating of couldn't give a damn and what she says stings more than usual.
it feels like she doesn't care and hates me more than anything else.
I asked her not to fill the bin up too high when it's overflowing,
by ask I said "I'm not starting an argument, I promise, I just want to explain something, but I don't want to upset you, and it's not a personal thing, I just want to ask you something, when the bin gets high can you pull it out and put another one in if you catch it when it's at the point" to which I get an out burst of f yous , f offs, personal attacks about myself and that I do nothing, she does everything.
she believes I'm personally attacking her just by opening my mouth.
I'm so scared to talk to her about anything.
And I have to practice it in my head before I say it allowed to make sure it's ok to say
If she wants something, it's not up for discussion, if I say no I have to go through the motions of her hating me, and making me feel like the worst person in the world,
She wanted a dog which we can afford and can't take care of, we've recently moved country, in an apartment and have two cats which it wouldn't be fair, I've said no to the dog and now I'm the worst person in the entire world and I honestly believe I'm the most incredibly worst person in the world !
I've lost friends and can't make new ones because I'm on edge as she tells me not to behave certain ways that are part of my personality in case I embarrass her
In about an hour I'll either get an apology or she'll find me crying , tut say something like here we go again and lay on the second attack, then maybe after that get an apology
But right now, as I have no one to talk to
I just really needed to get it off my chest
I'm sorry if this is the wrong place to do that, but I feel like I have no where else to go
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