Depressed today

[englanjk]

Hey guys, I haven't posted in some time and wanted to reach out because I am feeling pretty down today. I have been going to therapy for my depression and to get help dealing with ADD but my next appointment is not until Thursday so I figured I would type this out here.

I suffer from impostor syndrome, a lot of people do but it never seems to fade for me. I know that I have come somewhat far in my career but I constantly need help with tasks at work and it gets to me.

I feel like I need to change my image at work as well, I find my self from time to time wanting to dress better, I mostly wear jeans, docs and band t-shirts. This is also the norm for several other co-workers but I don't want to dress like this any more, not even in my off time. I have always had a self image problem and have never been happy with the way I look/present myself.

And finally the kicker, I know that I would be much farther in my career if it was not for ADD. I find a lack of interest in studying for certifications or just doing more than what is required of me at my job. I wish I could break past this but it's hard when I cannot focus on more than one thing for a few minutes at the most.

ADD has affected every aspect of my life. My marriage, my social life, my career and even my personal entertainment. I cannot tell you the last time I saw anything I wanted to do to the end. I have lived with this disorder my entire life and now at 37, it seems to be the worse it has ever been. I don't know what to do.

[mildadhd]

It is really hard on us, living with them.

I often wonder where are all the other people who have moderate to severe AD(H)D?

My only conclusion so far is many of us are living in the "downtown"?



Einstein would not ware socks, partly because he did not want to ware socks.

Grandin is making new discoveries, partly because she has a new perspective.




M

[sarahsweets]

Ive never heard of imposter syndrome can you explain more?