The what's bothering you RIGHT NOW thread Part V

[Lunacie]

Originally Posted by tudorose

So many attempts at posts and all deleted. I'm really struggling atm. I went to work and I thought as I walked in that I don't wanna be at work. Then I realised I didn't want to be at home either. I just didn't want to be anywhere. I've had enough of the mental torture. I rang a helpline and they helped but then you have to work out how to move around the office when you're crying so nobody sees. Pretty hard in an open plan office. My buddy gave me a piece of fruit. That helped but I just feel so miserable. I'm tired of being me. I want to be someone else for a bit I need a break.

Have you talked to a doctor about depression, and maybe taking an antidepressant?
This just sounds so familar.

[psychopathetic]

Oh Tudsy-Tud-Tuds
My heart is aching for you.



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[Rebelyell]

I have days like that when I'm at work I wanna be home n.vice versa I use to feel like this in school and was very unhappy w my home n.school life.as a kid i.couldnt do much I was stuck I.never gave it much thought that maybe it could be related to my depression .I'm sorry your going thru a rough patch Tudor I hope it gets better for you.

[Rebelyell]

Sorry if I'm rambling tonight. I'm really starved n bored to physically talk to someone intellectually.talking.to my co workers is like talking to a bunch of idiots I swear.

[Greyhound1]

Originally Posted by namazu

Photo or it didn't happen...

Did I ever tell you about the time my hair was eaten by a vacuum cleaner?

Not one of my finer moments. I got a major haircut on Sunday and destroyed the evidence. Much rather have people believe it didn’t happen than post a photo and prove I’m an idiot.

Do tell about the hair eating vacuum. Got pics? Flowbee mishap?

http://youtube.com/watch?v=oK7_VSpTyVY&feature=youtu.be

[tudorose]

Originally Posted by Lunacie

Have you talked to a doctor about depression, and maybe taking an antidepressant?
This just sounds so familar.

I haven't. I'm need all my wits about me to deal with it. Once I do I might be okay. I got into a study - like a clinical trial testing treatments for childhood trauma. It should help me but it will also be for the greater good. Once the study is complete they will better be able to determine what is the best treatment for ptsd. I was so stressed coz I was trying to force myself to remember stuff my brain doesn't want to. I understand now why I can't remember it all. In some ways not being able to remember it all has revealed the answer.

[tudorose]

Originally Posted by Rebelyell

I have days like that when I'm at work I wanna be home n.vice versa I use to feel like this in school and was very unhappy w my home n.school life.as a kid i.couldnt do much I was stuck I.never gave it much thought that maybe it could be related to my depression .I'm sorry your going thru a rough patch Tudor I hope it gets better for you.

Thanks Rebs. I had a better day today thankfully. And we're getting another puppy tonight so at least Im in a better space. Don't worry you're not rambling. I wish we were in the same time zone!!

[Lunacie]

Originally Posted by tudorose

I haven't. I'm need all my wits about me to deal with it. Once I do I might be okay. I got into a study - like a clinical trial testing treatments for childhood trauma. It should help me but it will also be for the greater good. Once the study is complete they will better be able to determine what is the best treatment for ptsd. I was so stressed coz I was trying to force myself to remember stuff my brain doesn't want to. I understand now why I can't remember it all. In some ways not being able to remember it all has revealed the answer.

I think that was the root of my depression as well. As well as my hubby not
being understanding of what had happened to me as a child and how it was
continuing to affect me. I sometimes wish I'd been able to forget. I don't know
if that would have been better, but one always wonders about the other side
of the coin I guess.

[Rebelyell]

Ya probably get sick n tired n bored w me like everyone else seemingly does n then I get kicked to the curb.good luck on the puppy. Believe it or not I heard extasy / acid was being used in trials for PTSD.not sure how true this is..over hear those are outlawed drugs..it just sucks having no one to talk to who at least seems genuine anymore now I know how elderly people feel when people shake their heads all fake at them n treat them like they have no time or effort for them..really sad

[Rebelyell]

It's called repressed thoughts and smells sounds etc can trigger part or all of the memories being brought back..the brain forgets these bad memories as a way of protecting itself

[tudorose]

Originally Posted by Lunacie

I think that was the root of my depression as well. As well as my hubby not
being understanding of what had happened to me as a child and how it was
continuing to affect me. I sometimes wish I'd been able to forget. I don't know
if that would have been better, but one always wonders about the other side
of the coin I guess.

Problem is not remembering doesn't mean it doesn't affect you it just means it affects you and you have no idea why. These things should never happen in the first place.

[psychopathetic]

Mom's been gone 2 years now.
Don't really want to talk about it. Don't want people's sympathy or hugs or anything.
Not even sure why I'm typing it out.

It's been a rough month.

[midnightstar]

Originally Posted by psychopathetic

Mom's been gone 2 years now.
Don't really want to talk about it. Don't want people's sympathy or hugs or anything.
Not even sure why I'm typing it out.

It's been a rough month.

s psycho

[psychopathetic]

/hearts ya Mids.

[midnightstar]

Originally Posted by psychopathetic

/hearts ya Mids.

Tigger and Willow have a for Uncle Psycho as well