...My mom has passed away.

[psychopathetic]

I don't know why I'm typing this. I just don't want anything tonight. I don't want to think or to analyze or to ask questions.
I don't want to feel this. I keep feeling it bubble up in me. This eruption inside. I don't want to cry.

I just wish I had someone to talk to. I don't have a therapist I'm comfortable with anymore, I have my weekly support group but that's a week away...I feel awfully lonely right now and in desperate need to have someone close at hand.
And yet I don't even want to talk.

My mom has passed away and nothing makes sense to me right now and everything feels so fake and distant and I really just want to break something, but I don't want to do anything at all. I just want time to stand still. I don't even want to sleep.

It doesn't makes sense and I feel very strange. I don't know what I'm going to do, I don't know what will happen tomorrow.

I love you guys. I'm sorry. I'm in a very werid place rightnow. My mom hs passed and nothing is ever going to make sense again.
This couldn't have happened. Not my mom. My mom? I can't do this right now. I'm sorry.
I'm weird. I'm so ******* weird.
my mom though guys . i can't

[Greyhound1]

Psycho,

There are no words to say, only these bro hugs.. May peace be with you and your family.

[psychopathetic]

(((((((Houndsy)))))))

[Greyhound1]

I sent you a PM if you need to talk or someone just to listen. My heart goes out to you and your family.

[peripatetic]

ohmygod...i'm so sorry...

please, if i can be of any use...reach out. i think you have my email, too.

deepest condolences.xx

[Unmanagable]

Oh psych, I'm so sorry. (((((((((Hugs)))))))))) Reach out anytime you want or need to, please. Holding you and your dad close in my heart.

[ginniebean]

Pycho, I lost my dad a few years ago and it's so devastating. i'm so sorry you have my deepest condolences. it takes a long time to grieve the death of a parent. Even now a wave of grief can overwhelm me.

[Fuzzy12]

Psycho I'm so sorry. I don't even know what to say. I can't even imagine how you are feeling right now. If there's any thing I can do you know where to find me. You are so loved. Huge hug to you and your dad.

[dvdnvwls]

(((((((((((((psycho)))))))))))))

[Simargl]

I'm so sorry. My heart goes out to you and your dad. (( :: psy :: ))

[namazu]

Thinking of you.

[psychopathetic]

Gah, I can't go back to sleep. I just dreamt she was driving me around town and I just wanted to go do some simple things with her.

There's so many things I wanted to do with her yet.
We've been planning and saving up for a trip to the mall of america for years now...we were going to do right too. I was most excited to do the sea life aquarium with her, visiting the lego store with her where her and I were both going to build little lego mini figures and fill a cup full of legos each at the lego pick a brick wall...but I was most looking forward to doing the crayola experience with her. I can do it with my dad I guess...but it would've been pure magic with my mom. I'll have to push my dad to enjoy himself...where my mom would've needed no encouragement, she'd be geeking out and letting her inner child out right along side me and it was going to be amazing guys.

I'm not ready for my mom to be gone. I feel like she's still going to come home here soon. Tomorrow. There's been some sort of mistake. It's some sort of stupid joke?

There's so many things I want to do with my mom. She's really my only true friend in the 3d world. I really was a mommy's boy.
Life seems so bleak without her .

[sarahsweets]

Psycho, My heart breaks for you.

[Fuzzy12]

Originally Posted by psychopathetic

Gah, I can't go back to sleep. I just dreamt she was driving me around town and I just wanted to go do some simple things with her.

There's so many things I wanted to do with her yet.
We've been planning and saving up for a trip to the mall of america for years now...we were going to do right too. I was most excited to do the sea life aquarium with her, visiting the lego store with her where her and I were both going to build little lego mini figures and fill a cup full of legos each at the lego pick a brick wall...but I was most looking forward to doing the crayola experience with her. I can do it with my dad I guess...but it would've been pure magic with my mom. I'll have to push my dad to enjoy himself...where my mom would've needed no encouragement, she'd be geeking out and letting her inner child out right along side me and it was going to be amazing guys.

I'm not ready for my mom to be gone. I feel like she's still going to come home here soon. Tomorrow. There's been some sort of mistake. It's some sort of stupid joke?

There's so many things I want to do with my mom. She's really my only true friend in the 3d world. I really was a mommy's boy.
Life seems so bleak without her .

I always loved reading descriptions of the things you guys used to do. Going up the mountains, playing star wars games. This must be a huge shock psycho. Take good care of yourself. A million more hugs.

[Lunacie]

OMG. So sudden. So sad. So sorry my friend.

I dreamed very vividly of my mom as well the night after she died from cancer.