Adult with ADD -I am going to quit my job! I think?

[Struggling]

I have a full time "desk" job...that I HATE...I also work part time at a fitness facility (which I love) and I am a professional painter (houses, not art). I also love the painting. I really really hate my full time, well paying, dependable, flexible hours, desk job. I want to quit...I seriously can't sit in that office, isolated from the world, staring at the same stupid computer, doing the same thing every day...any more!

I honestly believe that this job, which I've been doing since January, is responsible for my latest, most severe bout of depression/ADDish behaviour. When everything else is good, and I am stimulated and not bored, then I can totally control my behaviour...but when I am doing something that I don't want to do, and it is boring the hell out of me...then everything else suffers...I no longer can control any of my behaviours...which then leads to depression.

So...I know I have to get out of this job. My problem is of course...money. Both my other jobs are seasonal...especially the painting. I could go out on my own w/ either the training or the painting, I have a business marketing background...so the knowledge is there...but I just can't seem to get my act together and get started. I have everything I need to start painting on my own...I just need to take a risk and do it. And I can't seem to actually do that.

I would love to go out on my own w/ the training...but it would involve upgrading skills and getting new certifications.....something that is daunting to me because studying is so hard...I can't focus or concentrate...nor does it seem like I retain any information.

Honestly...I would be much happier working for minimum wage at a job where I got to see new people every day, and got to interact and socialize on a regular basis...than I would making lots of cash being stuck in an office by myself day after day...I just can't afford to work for min. wage!

LOL...I don't know why I'm posting this...just need to rant I guess...maybe some opinions? ...I don't know...I just dread Monday and going back to that office.

[Nucking_Futs]

Two questions....

1.) Do you have money saved up?

2.) Do you have a family to support?

[charlie]

Struggling,
I've worked boring receptionists jobs also, being stuck to the desk is absolute torture only those who've been there realize it.

If possible can you work your way into helping the other depts when they are slammed by doing the odd jobs for them?
Then hopefully if a perfect marketing job opened up you will already have the experience to nail it.

Could you also let the fitness facility job know you're willing to be on call if they have more openings?

[Struggling]

Thanks for your responses guys! I really appreciate it

Two questions....

1.) Do you have money saved up?

2.) Do you have a family to support?

I have money saved up...but not a lot to get me very far. I would be ok for about a month...and if I quit my job before finding another...I'd end up having panic attacks worrying about what's gonna happen, lol.

As for family...I do have support...but I left my husband about one year ago...and in that past year they've helped me beyond belief, and I really can't expect anything more from them They've been wonderful though.

Why can't I just like this job ...it's a good job!

Struggling,
I've worked boring receptionists jobs also, being stuck to the desk is absolute torture only those who've been there realize it.

If possible can you work your way into helping the other depts when they are slammed by doing the odd jobs for them?
Then hopefully if a perfect marketing job opened up you will already have the experience to nail it.

Could you also let the fitness facility job know you're willing to be on call if they have more openings?

The thing w/ the desk job is that I am already doing EVERYTHING else that I can, lol. My boss knows I can't sit still and do one thing (though he doesn't know it's ADD) ...and he's been very accomodating...always changing things to suit me...one reason why I feel so guilty about STILL hating this job! And the fitness facility...it's not shifts that I take...it's clients, I'm a personal trainer, and we are expected to get our own clients. I know I could focus on that but I've been there already and it's not dependable enough for me to support kids on.