Caring Issue

[tortilaman]

I feel like I spelled "caring" wrong and it's driving me nuts but that's not the point...

Does anybody else have an issue where they just don't care about certain things in their life? I know we all have this issue, and even with things where we know that not caring about something will make our life worse (if we didn't have this symptom, we wouldn't technically be add as I understand it) but this isn't something like forgetting rent or things like that.

Does anybody have trouble caring about their own health sometimes? Or possibly have trouble caring about things that don't directly affect your "bottom line" or well being, but are things that you know that you do care about, you just can't express it.

I have had trouble with acne for a long time, I was on acutane and the whole nine yards and everything. I thought I had dealt with the issue for a few years until I went on adderall again I think is kind of the time that it started to come back. I realized today that I just want to pop the zits even though I know it's not the right thing to do and it will cause scaring. As soon as I feel something funky in my skin, like just a little minute bump or raising, I'll start to pinch it or pick at it or something. I just looked down at my chest today and realized that it's covered in weird bloody things because I was popping pimples before they had surfaced and it was so satisfying even though I knew it was the wrong thing to do I was just getting those things out of my system.

It's kinda like I just want to get rid of it now and I have no regards for later the scaring and everything and it's just so satisfying to get rid of it.

I know I have stomach pain somewhat frequently but I don't watch what I eat. I was diagnosed with a giant brain tumor the size of my fist when I was 12 and didn't think anything of it. My parents were freaking out talking to friends they had that had dealt with brain cancer, going to specialist and brain surgeons and all this stuff and I was just totally fine.

I know there's other things too, but I just noticed the medical stuff tonight. Easily preventable stuff, but I just have a compulsion to do it, or I just don't care that something awful is happening, or that I'm doing something that will negatively impact me or somebody else and I don't care.

The kicker is that there are other things that are so closely related to things that I don't care about that I will spend every waking minute researching and trying to work on. It's just all very confusing to me.

This was kind of "stream of consciousness", so I'm sorry if it's confusing or doesn't make sense, I just got kinda freaked out tonight I guess. It's 2 in the morning and I should go to sleep, I have to pack up my house tomorrow.

[yellowflowers]

Originally Posted by tortilaman

I feel like I spelled "caring" wrong and it's driving me nuts but that's not the point...

Does anybody else have an issue where they just don't care about certain things in their life? I know we all have this issue, and even with things where we know that not caring about something will make our life worse (if we didn't have this symptom, we wouldn't technically be add as I understand it) but this isn't something like forgetting rent or things like that.

Does anybody have trouble caring about their own health sometimes? Or possibly have trouble caring about things that don't directly affect your "bottom line" or well being, but are things that you know that you do care about, you just can't express it.

I have had trouble with acne for a long time, I was on acutane and the whole nine yards and everything. I thought I had dealt with the issue for a few years until I went on adderall again I think is kind of the time that it started to come back. I realized today that I just want to pop the zits even though I know it's not the right thing to do and it will cause scaring. As soon as I feel something funky in my skin, like just a little minute bump or raising, I'll start to pinch it or pick at it or something. I just looked down at my chest today and realized that it's covered in weird bloody things because I was popping pimples before they had surfaced and it was so satisfying even though I knew it was the wrong thing to do I was just getting those things out of my system.

It's kinda like I just want to get rid of it now and I have no regards for later the scaring and everything and it's just so satisfying to get rid of it.

I know I have stomach pain somewhat frequently but I don't watch what I eat. I was diagnosed with a giant brain tumor the size of my fist when I was 12 and didn't think anything of it. My parents were freaking out talking to friends they had that had dealt with brain cancer, going to specialist and brain surgeons and all this stuff and I was just totally fine.

I know there's other things too, but I just noticed the medical stuff tonight. Easily preventable stuff, but I just have a compulsion to do it, or I just don't care that something awful is happening, or that I'm doing something that will negatively impact me or somebody else and I don't care.

The kicker is that there are other things that are so closely related to things that I don't care about that I will spend every waking minute researching and trying to work on. It's just all very confusing to me.

This was kind of "stream of consciousness", so I'm sorry if it's confusing or doesn't make sense, I just got kinda freaked out tonight I guess. It's 2 in the morning and I should go to sleep, I have to pack up my house tomorrow.

Can relate - I have so so many self defeating habits. I go at spots too even when they are just tiny bumbs that should be left alone. And I know they'll scare. Its like the immediate just dominates over long term every time. And I am similar in that there are other things I can't stop caring about. I feel for me its linked in part to this sense that I have no future - can't picture one - never could. Its not that I don't plan on living - just ... I don't know how to explain it. Maybe its part of not being able to plane very well - no concept of time - and trying to work out/ organise any long term idea - it just makes me feel overwhelmed. I live right here right now - I don't feel tied to anything - space or time. How bizarre does that sound? Life as everyone else is living it doesn't feel very real to me - never did either. Its like I can't wake up.

[fracturedstory]

I care too much about my health. Who said anxiety was bad for you? There was a time I didn't care as much and ended up with athletes foot, the worst winter cold ever and really bad teeth. So now I panic about such things and at the sign of a slight sore throat, a tiny little tickle, I will reach for the herbal tea and lock myself in my bedroom in heavy jackets with my heater on. Devil, you get on out of this body.

[Assumption]

I (pker014 - posting on my wife's account until my account is fixed) get the exact same thing. I cannot stop myself from picking zits. Then they scab and I pick them some more. Then I notice that I haven't shaved in several days and that my facial hairs are growing through the scabs, so I start plucking those out. And then I realize that I have a big unintentional scab in my unintentional hole in my unintentional beard. My hairstyle often looks quite a bit like Bernard's off Black Books, too (actually, less stylish but similarly unkempt). I haven't been diagnosed yet though.

[tortilaman]

I feel that I devote a lot of my time to my health and to "productivity" and improving myself, it's just that some things I just can't seem to care about despite the fact that in general that type of thing I care about very much, or devote a lot of my time to.

[Drewbacca]

Originally Posted by tortilaman

Does anybody else have an issue where they just don't care about certain things in their life? I know we all have this issue, and even with things where we know that not caring about something will make our life worse (if we didn't have this symptom, we wouldn't technically be add as I understand it) but this isn't something like forgetting rent or things like that.

Does anybody have trouble caring about their own health sometimes? Or possibly have trouble caring about things that don't directly affect your "bottom line" or well being, but are things that you know that you do care about, you just can't express it.

All the time.
Returning phone calls, bills, making appointments, following up on job interviews, completing school work, sleeping, eating... I could go on.

You're sorta right that the above list isn't really an ADHD thing specifically... although, the inability to keep and follow a schedule is very ADHD, perhaps solely so.

Take those away and I still get impatient way too easily, can't sit through a movie, get bored mid conversation unless the person I'm talking to is brilliant (or adhd... same thing, right?). You get the idea.