new to forum, just wanted to say 'hi'

[sweetmusic]

Greetings! So, on a night that I was planning on "getting to sleep early" (before 2 a.m. for me...) I've been up all night on the computer. I started with Craigslist and ended up here. Was diagnosed with ADHD quite a few years ago, it seems to be getting worse and is coupled with depression (that seems to come and go, but is annoyingly and unpleasantly present these days) and OCD (hoarding, mostly**). In spite of being "smarter than the average bear", having a relatively "normal" childhood, and practically bursting all over with creativity, life is really hard for me. I take 60 mg. of Adderall (two 30 mg.) daily. I'm "supposed to be" taking Luvox and Abilify for depression but it made me feel so zombie-like (mornings aren't pretty for me under the best of circumstances...) I stopped taking them after only 3 or 4 days of trying it. Am supposed to take just the Luvox now, and half the orig. dose.
I'm going to try and find a local support group but also thought this seems like a good place to start. Thanks!

** I'm not going to be on the next episode of "Hoarders" and don't have cat skeletons buried beneath piles of junk, but I do tend to "collect" things and have a hard time throwing things out. It has developed into a problem of enough magnitude that I'm really seeing how damaging it is. Trying to change things (AAGH! Get rid of stuff?!?) is proving to be most difficult. Even as I recognize the problem and want to deal with it, the ADHD makes it quite difficult to focus on what needs to done, and that can get kind of ... depressing. I'm sure other people have experienced vicious cycles like this. Any words of encouragement or ideas are very welcome! Thank you!

[Retromancer]

Welcome to the Forums!

[ginniebean]

Welcome to the forums!

[DvlsAdv0c8]

Hello!

[amberwillow]

Welcome to the forums.

[BR549]

Welcome

[sweetmusic]

Thanks for your welcoming words, those who posted. I'm still feeling my way around here and spent hours and hours reading posts, trying to follow threads. It's disappointing when you find something that really "clicks" with you and then you notice that the active posts were 2,3 or more years ago. Still worthwhile, but it would be nice to carry on certain conversations with folks who are (just a guess on my part) no longer participating on this Forum. Afterall, we have ADHD!!!! Just like the local support group in my community is "on vacation" for the summer and will be back "sometime"...Wondering if I'll have to start my OWN group locally rather than trust that others with ADHD will actually follow through and start meeting again...Some big-time depresssion really surfaced today for me. I have an incredible amount of work to do to take care of some financial messes, cleaning up my house and yard, etc. I may be evicted and I just can't let that happen, I don't know what I'd do. But...I watched a lot of TV, smoked some pot (which I hardly EVER do, I know it is NOT a good drug for me given my ADHD, depression and OCD realities. I think I just wanted to escape and it was a rather somber, foggy escape, not even very fun. I hate to admit that I feel really alone with all of this right now. Family and friends are loving and supportive, of course, but they don't really know how I'm really doing inside...thanks for listening.

[amberwillow]

I'm pretty good at co-coaching if you want to give it a go and stop escaping.

I have a lot of stuff to do also... We could help each-other.
PM me sometime if you are interested.

[sarahsweets]

I understand your pain however I'm sure you know that burying your pain in a substance regardless of whether or not its legal isn't going to help in the long run ..keep your chin up ...you are not alone.

[DvlsAdv0c8]

Although some of the other members are no longer posting, I'm sure we all share many of the same issues and traits. Even if we don't, this is a large, very supportive bunch!

[sweetmusic]

Gee, how ADHD is THIS?!? I said in my initial post that I take 60 mg. of Adderall per day. It's actually 90 mg., three 30 mg. pills per day! Reading some other posts that sounds like a GIGANTIC dose but that's what my doc (psychiatrist) prescribes... They are working so wonderfully well...NOT. Well, actually I do a lot better when I'm taking them than when I'm not, but "a lot better" isn't looking so good to me these days.