Adhd or just me?

[belonging]

I wonder how many of you share the same traits/issues as me and/or whether the stuff going on with me is simply character flaws.

Paranoia - I can often be right, but I recognise that I am a paranoid type of person in terms of people not liking me, plotting against me (seriously though, this did actually happen) .

Intense Worrier - I worry about everything, worry that I am going to lose my home, my job, my health and then 'global issues' like tidal waves, nuclear disaster, world wide famine and so on.

Mood Swings - kind of linked to the above and can then swing to euphoria almost when I find 'something' to hyper focus upon

Numerous 'ambitions' which can make me feel excited, happy, euphoric - but rarely follow through on any of them.

Intense introversion - dislike being around many people unless there is alcohol, in which case, I become a 'social butterfly' and can't stop talking

Hate small talk - I really zone out, feel irritated, frustrated and feel like a ten ton brick is weighing me down

Lack of maturity - I am sure I appear mature but my actual mind is still very young because it continually finds new obsessions and/or because the disorder means we never actually change how our mind works perhaps? (actually, not sure this one is a bad thing or not )

Control Freak vs Not wanting Responsibility of anything too taxing (to avoid mental stress, 'fog', worry, depression, inertia etc)

Multi-tasking - this seems to be at odds with adhd ? I can actually multi-task quite well but it does have an enormous toll on my mental & physical heath.

Intense laziness - in non-work periods

Selfishness in terms of giving my time away,....I have a lot of guilt about this because I let people down when they want to see me/share things with me. But it seems however guilty I feel, when the next opportunity comes along to do the right thing, I still just cannot make myself do it...

Frequent Anger outbursts... usually because my feelings have been hurt and/or I am frustrated with someone or something

Constant feelings of being overwhelmed - usually in work/around people/too many tasks too complete etc

There are way too many other 'issues' to post but the ones above have plagued me for most of my life but I've always thought it was just 'me' and not many other people felt like that. Now, I'm not so sure how much is actually related to a disorder.

[silivrentoliel]

so... that all sounds like me It's not just you. My reaction are a bit different, but as we are all individuals sharing the same disorder, that's going to happen

[amberwillow]

I don't share too many of these characteristics. I hope you have a big enough poll sample by the end of this thread for it to answer your initial query.

[belonging]

Oh, dear.... like my username infers, I'm looking to 'belong' somewhere

[belonging]

Originally Posted by silivrentoliel

so... that all sounds like me It's not just you. My reaction are a bit different, but as we are all individuals sharing the same disorder, that's going to happen

Missed your reply...

[fracturedstory]

All of the above.

At least there's two of us.

I have paranoia about people doing bad stuff to me. Worse than not liking me or plotting against me. Unless that plot is homicide.

I actually just got out of doing something for someone being it felt too stressful to me.

I have such a short fuse. I'm surprised how a good mood can turn into just yelling and being frustrated at ever one and thing for just existing.

I'm trying to think of what word I put before 'introvert' to describe myself. Something like 'severe.'

I just want to talk about science, some random fact, or whatever I've been obsessing over lately. I hate small talk.

I have so many ideas in my head but I only end up doing a few, and finishing maybe one of them, many years later.

When I multitask I burn things. But I find if I have to do multiple things fast I can. I just get really nervous about it.

I feel like 12 year olds are more mature than me.

I constantly have mental burn out for just over focusing until I my brain isn't capable of it anymore.

[SquarePeg]

4 of the above.
People not liking me - I couldn´t give a sh*t (unless someone I really like doesn´t like me)

ambitious NO- which is a major problem for me that I have never had any ambition or life plan I have just drifted along aimlessly taking advantage of worthwhile opportunities, don´t seem to be interested in any thing, I´m a bit brain dead really.

I am mature but love being childish and silly and messing with people.

Selfish - I would love to do stuff for people but have such trouble organising my own life that I just can´t manage it.

I am so quick to anger, my poor kids are always getting snapped at. I think it´s because I get so frustrated with myself, if my kids are asking me some innocent question my brain is to fuzzy to think straight and then I get annoyed with them for making demands on me. Wow what a crappy mum I am!

[plank80]

All of them except paranoia and introversion

[Liuka2012]

It is in me too. Right now I am paranoid about losing my mom. She is healthy as can be. But, she is also the one person in my life that I actually do thing's with. Like get me out of the house. I mean we fight sometimes. But, that's normal.

[Liuka2012]

I also have general anxiety disorder, and I have developed seperation anxiety disorder. Social anxiety. You name it. call me crazy!

[belonging]

LindaGreen People not liking me - I couldn´t give a sh*t (unless someone I really like doesn´t like me)

Yeah, I get that - I just seem to think that people don't, even when they do and people say oh, you are so paranoid!!

ambitious NO- which is a major problem for me that I have never had any ambition or life plan I have just drifted along aimlessly taking advantage of worthwhile opportunities, don´t seem to be interested in any thing, I´m a bit brain dead really.

Not so much ambitious with major life plans, more like 'ideas' that rarely materialize but I kind of relate to your 'drifting aimlessly' because most of the time, I think I have just been either lucky or backed into a corner and had no choice but to 'move forward' and take up a new job or change something in my life.

Thanks for the reply (for all the replies) interesting for me to see the results

[belonging]

Originally Posted by fracturedstory

All of the above.

At least there's two of us.

I have paranoia about people doing bad stuff to me. Worse than not liking me or plotting against me. Unless that plot is homicide.

I actually just got out of doing something for someone being it felt too stressful to me.

I have such a short fuse. I'm surprised how a good mood can turn into just yelling and being frustrated at ever one and thing for just existing.

I'm trying to think of what word I put before 'introvert' to describe myself. Something like 'severe.'

I just want to talk about science, some random fact, or whatever I've been obsessing over lately. I hate small talk.

I have so many ideas in my head but I only end up doing a few, and finishing maybe one of them, many years later.

When I multitask I burn things. But I find if I have to do multiple things fast I can. I just get really nervous about it.

I feel like 12 year olds are more mature than me.

I constantly have mental burn out for just over focusing until I my brain isn't capable of it anymore.

Completely resonates with my own experience. I've read a few of your posts and I think I remember seeing that you wrote about having aspergers with adhd and how the two can be co-morbid ? I relate to aspergers a lot too. Between adhd combined and aspergers is kind of where I'm drawn but have been confused about some of the reading elsewhere about the primary cause.

Thanks for your response

[plank80]

Actually thinkin about it I can be a bit paranoid as well but that probably ties in with excessive worrying.