many changes nothing good

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Hello!

i am 24 years old. i never thought something wrong with me until 3 -4 months ago.

i went phycologist and told my problems as you had experience in your life

i start medications with prozac,cipralex,buspon,welbutrin xl,dodex these medications ruined my life so badly but my life already ruined.it just getting worst.i went 6 different doctors ,got many opinions but they all said we cant treat you for add because you are overaged.can you believed it?

Then i tried different doctor , never gave up and finally she understand what is going on my life

i start add treatment so far i dont know how i am supposed to feel?

Using concerta 27 mg

probably my doctor will increase my dosage.

Let me tell my ruined life.

i never study hard in my life ,maybe 10 minutes tops before the exams

Because i was busy doing nothing just sitting chair looking computer checking mails some news ,watching tv -shows ....when i start to study 15 min later i feel slepy but i want to study .always i tried to relax and messing around computer but computer time never ends

i switch 4 univercity .
-fine arts---left-1st year
-machine designer left- 2nd year
-economy-left 2nd year
-physic still studying

yeah im studying physic now but i m worst student ever.

i can talk hours of anything,i have many ideas,i try to write novel but never finished.

people around me talking about me bad way because talking to much breaking their hearts with my words and cant finish which i started ,being late,cant hold my promises.

And i m very horny which i discovered many add patients have same feelings.

Jesus, my life is not getting better not even close. i really dont know what to do

i still reading topics 'more i read i realize i m not alone that is relief but still not certain resolution

p.s sorry for my grammer i m kinda slepy now

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hello again ,

Also i want to share my obsession probably common in add,

i m perfectionist so bad.Effects my life so badly.

as i mentioned my last post im hypersexual - but concerta blocked somehow .it is good for now.

always short temper i had .Maybe i can call "irascibility" if that is true defination.

more talking about everything giving many ideas to closest friends but i cant do my own ideas and finish them

cant keep my promises ,always late somewhere.

Keep losing my motorcycle keys,home keys,my wallet or pencils.

My room always meessed up .When i trieng to put in orders things in my room 2nd day they goes chaos which i cant understand how.

everything in the world meaningless for me.For example money.It is just papers which has alot of mixed colours and numbers.I cant understand why people working for papers a lot.Old ages like trading is much more logical than that money.


i also realize i cant stand long time reading documents what are related my study i tried to learn fast reading techniques but never worked out so far.I can read so much faster but made significant mistakes and still cant understand properly



and last i remember if i put myself somewhere isolated from anything to start study or reading some documents ,im feel slepy but when i changed what i do ,that feel goes away from me.


Also thanks for private messages.

if i put my life in order and somehow mange to finish my novel (i hope not 9284983 years later ) i ll send a copy who wants it

Take care yourselves