my first post! help?

[blaise0604]

So a little of my ADD/ADHD background. I've known for years i had some sort of learning disability but often associated it with dyslexia since i mix up the letters b,d,p, and sometimes g. (thats just one example) I never really had it professionally diagnosed since i thought it was something i could fix and i think i kinda did. I think i did since i believe ive survived college and am about to receive my civil engineering degree. However, post college, symptoms seems to have come back although now its more on the ADD/ADHD side. My parents finally believed me cause since I moved back to my parents house i have done alot of careless things that caused them to suspect i really have a problem. Things such as constantly forgetting to include attachments on important emails such as job apps, supper messy room and car, and what really drove them to call the doctor for me was i kept leaving my damn front door open! One day i left it open for 12+ hours and the very next day my parents gave me a talk about getting help so now I am and im seeing if it can be official by tomorrow after my tests are diagnosed by the doctor.

Now to my actual dilemma! there is this test i have to take called the EIT/FE exam and an easy way to describe it would be the SAT's for engineering college grads so its pretty tough. The thing is I really really have a hard time trying to study. I keep getting distracted and my parents are getting annoyed and my mom just told me to stop blaming everything on the ADD which i totally agree with! But here i am typing away on this forum and i still havent really studied and the test is next week At the same time when what my mom tells me really sticks to me. Why do i keep procrastinating getting distracted and playing hours of video games or simply getting sleepy when i start to study when i know i have something super important coming up! am i just stupid, unmotivated, and lazy? my future and length of stay back in my parents house may very well depend on this test yet i havent studied and it is next week! I know this test will enable me to have a huge advantage in the finally getting a real job being able to move out and quit my stupid restaurant job but whenever i start studying i end up quitting:[

I guess this is just me venting but any advise? also theres a possibility i may take medication but my parents are really against it since theyve read all these negative things about it and how its like "cocaine" -_- and how ill be dependent on it but ill be honest with you guys i have tried adderall a couple times before and i was able to study 10 weeks worth of material in a couple days for a final and passed. Right now being prescribed medication seems like it will really help me since i remember being an organised studying machine when i took it. i dont mean to sound like a weird drugie looking for a way out of a hole i feel i dug myself but when i see the doctor tomorrow should i ask to be prescribed it asap?

also sorry about how long this is its my first time in the forums and thought ide let it all out lol.

[Moonshadow]

Hi, Blaise. It's good that your parents recognise that you have a significant problem. Best to get to see an expert on ADD as soon as possible, and seek their advice on diagnosis and treatment. I don't think your parents should be too quick to prejudge that, though I can understand their concerns.

It is likely that whatever help you can get will come to late for your upcoming test, but your difficulty in preparing for it should hopefully encourage your parents to accept that you need specialist advice, not to be dismissed as lazy, etc. Good luck, R