Problem!

[Sun2707]

I am so deppress now, I also feel upset and angry. My past addiction create me problem, because of my stupid abuse of pills and alchools I got to pay for it now not to mention my health had already pay for it. I did had talked about this situation in another post but this one is addiction so maybe someone who is dealing or had deal with the same type of situation has me can relate and let me know how they deal with it?

Long story short, my psychiatrist doesn't want to increase my dose of Adderall, well not yet. I am on 15 mg and it's no longer work for me. I told her how adderall had help me so much and an increase dose will be very helpful but no, not for now. I understand her concern but how could an increase dose of adderall made me become an addict again?

I try to tell her my addiction was in the past, it been more then 2 years ago and I never abuse of any pills and alchool since then. I only self medicated before because I was so anxious and deppressed but once I was put on the right medication for it I felt better, I didn't felt the need to abuse of pills. How can I explain to her that the chance of me becomming addict again are very low. People with ADD had a tendecy to self-medicated but once they are put on the right ADD medication their risk to abuse meds are very low.

I will stop here for now, I had already write a similar post before concerning this situation, peoples around here gonna start to find me annoying lol but hopefully some of you can relate and share your situation and let me know how you dealt with it?

[Braack]

You will probably have to find another psychiatrist. Have to get one that will understand that most ADDers where addicts in the past to self-medicate and doesn't have preset intentions on not giving a former ADD addict stimulants for there disorder.

[Sun2707]

It's the first time I had a psychiatrist who is not an ***! She had lest listen and she's the first one who did prescribe me adderall. Maybe I should talk about all this with my therapist and let her know how I feel about this and maybe she could discuss about the situation with my psychiatrist.

Even if my psychiatrist increase my dose I don't know if it will work? My tolerance is way to high. It been a while since 15mg doesn't work for me and I had reach 75mg, that the dose who work for me now. I know it a shame that I don't follow my psychatrist direction but 15mg just don't work anymore.

I am thinking about stopping adderall, at lest for a while. My goal is to go without it and to work to be able to be less tired and have more energy. I don't know how I will do it without the adderall but they got to be another way then adderall! Anyone who got ADD and don't take medication for it know how to deal with ADD, how you do it? How are you able to function and have energy? How can you go threw a day? If anyone can reply I will appreciate it.

I don't know if talking with my therapist will help. She know about my past addiction and I think she's concern about it so she won't be to understanding for an increase dose. I think she's affraid that I may be vulnerable to addiction again. I don't feel I am but I know that I had a high tolerance to adderall so I dont think that even an increase dose would help. I need to much and no psychiatrist even one who understand ADD would prescribe such a high dose of adderall and I don't want such a high dose, I want to go without it, I sure gonna try!

Is there anyone who like me had built up so fast an high tolerance to adderall and now they need a high dose? How high it is? Is it like me 75mg? If anyone can reply I will appreciate it. Thanks!