Suicide

[Revz]

they say its just a "pernament fix to a temporary problem" but man im ADHD and very high anxiety and have lots of depression sometimes.. i feel almost robotic most of the time beccause of my meds.. and these are not temporary problems.. these are forever problems.. sometimes i just want to die JUST SO I CAN STOP THINKING!!!!! UGH!!!!

dont worry i dont actualy plan on doing anything. just venting i guess... w/e

[randomthoughts]

what exactly are you taking? sounds like u need to look into manic-depression (bipolar) if u havent already...

[FallenAsh]

Hi Revz, I too have depression, anxiety along well as post traumatic stress disorder and it is really hard to cope some days more than others. Do you have a therapist or psychologist/psychiatrist you can talk to?

I am currently taking 45mg Avanza (Mirtazapine) and it seems to be levelling the depression out to a certain extent. Was taking Seroquel as well to help with anxiety but have been weaned off that now.

As for the anxiety part, I have taken up going to the gym to release the tension caused by it and to have the 'feel good' endorphins kick in for a natural boost.

I used to be housebound because of my anxiety and even when that had happened, I was advised by my doctor to walk around the house for as long as it took until the anxiety diminished.

What anxiety does is gives adrenalin rushes and your body and mind is psyched up, making you feel tense, stressed and more anxious.

Your body needs to get rid of that excess adrenalin, so exercising it away, makes the anxiety and stress lessen and rids your body of the fight/flight response.

Depression and anxiety can be managed, but it is tricky to balance everything out, which for me, is why having a good counsellor/therapist/psych/pdoc is essential.

You probably already know all of that so I'll shut up now, but hope I have helped a little.........:soapbox:

[QueensU_girl]

re: 1

Do you have any health insurance, RevZ?

[MaNaeSWolf]

sometimes i just want to die JUST SO I CAN STOP THINKING!!!!! UGH!!!!

I sometimes think thinking is our gift as much as our curse.

I always manage to think myself into a depression, but have now thought of ways to avoid doing that.I still get depressed at times, but I now avoid all the suicidal thoughts.
I think the secret is to learn to channel your thoughts in a positave way.
Not easy if your ADHD I know, but just an idea. It is "sort of" what I have been trying to do.

[~boots~]

I think maybe you should talk to your doc and cut down or change your meds...

[Matt S.]

Revz maybe you should look into a DBT program...

[EYEFORGOT]

What is a DBT program?

[Matt S.]

Dialectical behavioral therapy

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Dialectical behavioral therapy (DBT) is a psychosocial treatment developed by Marsha M. Linehan specifically to treat individuals with borderline personality disorder. While DBT was designed for individuals with borderline personality disorder, it is used for patients with other diagnoses as well.

The treatment itself is based largely in behaviorist theory with some cognitive therapy elements as well. Unlike cognitive therapy it incorporates mindfulness practice as a central component of the therapy.

There are two essential parts of the treatment, and without either of these parts the therapy is not considered "DBT adherent."

1. An individual component in which the therapist and client discuss issues that come up during the week, recorded on diary cards and follow a treatment target hierarchy. Self-injurious and suicidal behaviors take first priority, followed by therapy interfering behaviors. Then there are quality of life issues and finally working towards improving one's life generally. During the individual therapy, the therapist and client work towards improving skill use. Often, skills group is discussed and obstacles to acting skillfully are addressed.

2. The group, which ordinarily meets once weekly for about 2-2.5 hours, in which clients learn to use specific skills that are broken down into 4 modules: core mindfulness skills, emotion regulation skills, interpersonal effectiveness skills and distress tolerance skills.

[At Heart]

Hey there Revz,

I have seen you around the forums, and it is nice to know that you feel safe venting here, however I would say it might be great if you would talk with your doctor (or therapist) about these thoughts. I hope you have lots of supportive people in your life. Perhaps those "forever" problems can be addressed by your doctor, because if your meds are working correctly, you should not be having these problems (at least not to the degree that you are having).

Please keep us posted.

[Skully]

I hope today was a better day for you. Have you seen a psychiatrist to rule out other mood disorders such as bipolar? ADHD and bipolar go hand in hand for some. If you have bipolar II and are taking an antidepressant, the depression can actually get worse. Please make sure you have confidence in you doctor and trust his diagnosis. If you feel you are slipping further into depression, see your psychiatrist as soon as you possibily can. If you do not have that option, call the crisis line for your local treatment center.

[sloppitty-sue]

Hi Revz,

In the hopes that this might make you feel at least a SMIDGE better, I will disclose that I also have been going through a spell of major depression. I was advised that an intensive outpatient program at the local hospital would be a useful place for me to go. However - my experience was that it made things so much more stressful for me - a single mom - that I couldn't continue with it. (And I was extremely UNIMPRESSED with "the program.")

Just sharing in case you TOO find "recommended treatments" more harmful than helpful. Don't despair! Not all "highly recommended treatments" are for everyone.

I want to invite you to p.m. me anytime if you'd like to talk privately. However, be WARNED that I have offered this to another friend on here (please forgive me 4GotAgain) and have not been very good at getting back to her. I will very much TRY though. You might know how hard it is to keep promises at this time.

Please don't kill yourself or hurt yourself. My oldest child's father did commit suicide, and NOW that I've known first hand what it feels like for the person's family & friends - I have promised myself I will NOT leave that legacy to my children. PLEASE DON'T CONSIDER THAT IDEA too much.

Sincerely,
Sue

[MrBean]

I myself have seriously contemplated suicide. However, I have never tried to kill myself before because I knew I would go to hell. Sometimes when you try to do it you end up getting brain damage instead. What I really feel depressed about is that I have a long way to go before I can complete my bachelor's degree. Something will work out for you just hang in there.

[QueensU_girl]

re: 14

What do they say in AA, etc?


"One day at a time"?

Course by course, you'll get a BA/BS degree done.