Me vs Brain

[Scooter77]

I often feel as if it's me against my brain. It's a war, my brain wants control and uses anxiety as a tool to keep me in line, I spent 30 years controlled by social anxiety and then I was dignosed SA and adhd at the same time. Since being on concerta for the last year it's like the meds put my brain on a leash like a mean dog, if the meds arent strong enough the leash gets longer, when the meds are good the leash is short and the mean dog sits in the corner watching. But it's nearly a year and they're not holding, how long will I have before I hit the limit? The downside is that I dont feel real, I always felt like everyone else knew something obvious that I just didnt get it.

Anxiety keeps me disconnected from other people but adhd keeps me disconnected within myself. I like my meds they allow me to be a better mum and do well at uni. The meds seem to restrain my brain so that the rest of me can function but if I need a drug to be able to do that then maybe it's not the real me, maybe the drugs create a false persona.

Does anyone else feel like they're fighting a war with their brain?

[Nishira]

it's quite often very difficult for me to embrace people and society. many times i'd like to be better at reaching out - but the best way to describe it is that my brain is like an empty well. I want to reach into the well to find ways to reach out to people but the well is empty - there's nothing in there, so i don't even know how to begin reaching out.

many times i feel that i'm behind invisible prison walls - is the best way i can describe it.

[sarek]

Very very familiar. Every day I feel I am fighting a battle to keep my brain on task, and I usually lose. By the end of a 8-9 hour working day it feels like its been 27 hours straight and rarely much to show for it.
I often do all the weeks work in less than a whole day when the deadlines are about to catch up with me.