i almost *hate* myself off concerta...

[gabriela]

i wake up in the morning (around 9 am). i take my anti-depressants (efexor 225 mg). i get up, take my dog for his morning walkie. i eat breakfast. i place myself at the computer, check my email. check out the addforum site.

lunch (if i remember and can be bothered).

i again place myself at the computer. at 1 pm i take concerta (54 mg). i work on updating the websites i'm in charge of.

at 3 pm one of my friends gets home from work, and so we usually take the dogs out for a long walk/run.

i get home (at about 8 pm). i place myself at the computer (my number 1 winding-down place). i go to bed at 10 pm. i take my sleeping pills (10 mg imovane). i fall asleep.

these are the *good* dags for me!
any more "stimulation" (i e more interpersonal contact) than this, and i'm

a) totally *BEAT* by 8 or p pm, and have to go to bed

or

b) if i'm still around people (even if they're "only" my friends) by that time, i can feel myself getting "hyper" - my mind starts racing; word-associations (because i'm a "language person";-), and ideas - i kinda think that when the concerta wears of, i'm dangerously dangling on the border to "bi-polarism"...
(my doctor - who specializes in schizophrenia and bi-polar disorder agrees with me, so i'm not just *saying* this, okay?)

this is something that really freaks me out, because i don't like it when i get like that...
it scares me *sooo* much, and i just don't know what to do...

ideas, anyone?

[gabriela]

well, here i am, after 148 days on concerta...
people who knew me "bc" (before concerta;-), all say i'm a *completely* "different"/"new" person now...

i'm no longer "hyper", and my life has slowed down considerably - something that has been *very* good for both my body and my brain...