Acceptance?? Struggling?

[Freedom101]

I was diagnosed a year ago with ADHD combined and I thought that I had accepted it, I am thoroughly ADHD but for some reason I keep denying it.

I've just gone through some pretty major personal crisis and my ADHD is somewhat out of control, my thought patterns are all over the place, it's like take someone without ADHD and put them through the things that I've been through and they would be struggling. But for me it's like a triple shot and my lack of acceptance to my brain differences just make it all that harder.

I keep beating myself up for making mistakes, it's just really hard. I have a new counselor who is helping me work through the personal issues but it's really tough when not even the pills let my brain turn off a bit and that's even if I remember to take them.

Has anyone else felt like this? Struggling with acceptance? I can't even get all the stuff I'm struggling with out of my head properly when I try.. It just either floods out or comes out in fragmented pieces

[corbykins]

me too, i still struggle to accept ADD diagnosis. I was diagnosed 10years ago, its hard to accept when theres so many people around me who dont believe ADD exists. it makes me question myself. when the meds were working it wasnt so bad cause i didnt feel so different but the way things are now its really hard to accept. ive had a struggle with depression and anxiety because of this and problems with medications for it.

i dont have a counselor or anyone to really talk to about these issues while im at school. the best way i have found is just taking it one day at a time each day you get through is a success. if i make someone else smile its a double success. if i can get myself to smile thats even better. and just the longer i can keep out of a depressed mood each day is that much closer to getting through this.

when i start thinking about it i and i realize im thinking about it i tell myself to stop and i just repeat that in my mind stop thinking about that and focus on what i need to do.

id say you are doing pretty well if you were only diagnosed a year ago. for one thing you are reaching out and talking to/trying to learn from others with ADHD. second you are talking to a counselor to try to work through things. the important thing is you are trying to help yourself and make things better. dont beat yourself up for not being able to do it right the first few or even first hundred times.lol if you can accept a small piece at a time that is good too

does this help at all or are my thoughts all over the place?

[Freedom101]

Originally Posted by corbykins

does this help at all or are my thoughts all over the place?

It does.. thanks.. I just get so caught up in all the thoughts in my head that I kind of forget to tell them to shut up

I probably just need to remember to be a bit kinder to myself and break things down into smaller bitesize pieces.

[tudorose]

I was dx 11 years ago. I still struggle. Thoughts are still all over the place. Go easy on yourself and come here more - it makes you feel as close to normal as you can get with ADHD.

[COBOL]

It's hard to accept an ADD diagnosis sometimes. I don't think society in general is well suited for individuals like us. The way things work in the matrix are most of the times not ADD friendly. Not that there is no place for us, it’s just that we are not going to get any understanding from out there, it has to come from within our ADD community.

I guess that’s why we struggle because there are societal expectations placed upon us in regards to what to think, how to behave and what your life should be like.

There’s one really good mental exercise that I like to perform every now and then, it helps with acceptance: picture yourself 20,000 years ago, living in the jungle, hunting animals for food and just being a regular caveman. I don’t think you’d be singled out for having ADD, I don’t think anyone could tell you apart from the bunch.

So, scattered thoughts and impulsive reactions, and the other 1029 ADD symptoms that we have, are not so bad by themselves, they are bad when placed in a constricted box of societal and personal expectations, thus acceptance is hard within that context.

As clichéd as it may sound, I guess when it comes to acceptance we need to think outside the box because while you are inside that box life can be a hellish experience unless you happen to be one of the fortunate ones who learn to adapt and thrive inside the matrix.

Sensei says, take the red pill, don't look back.

Have a nice day!
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